99 steps to reclaiming your individuality Step# 51

Reshaping the construct, reordering roles. Step #51

One of the biggest hurdles of normalizing life in an awakened state is the nagging and seemingly endless reflection on past experience. Too often we are in constant conflict between our awakened aspirations and the residual of living a life that was dominated by subservience to which ever nature state was affecting our life at the time. As mentioned in the previous step, life has conditioned us to believe that forward momentum negates or cleanses the mind of previous detrimental behavior, when the reality is that, we, if successful are not eliminating these behaviors, but are simply conditioning out, what was conditioned in.  And as always ever reminding ourselves that authorship is the only goal, is our pivotal resting point, and perceptions and ideals we held so dear were never wrong but simply out of tune and as our journey continues, the score will be written and rewritten a thousand times, but the song remains the same.

Another hurdle we must transcend is the perception of time.  Time is, for all intents and purposes an intrinsic overlord of our conscious experience in life. And with respect to the perception of the construct, one could see it as the polar extremes that define the boundaries of the construct. And to be free of the illusion of time and the chains that bind us to the confines of static existence, we must venture to reconsider our perception of time itself. One traveler once stated; "Time is,was, and now is no more". "Time is" is the unavoidable reality that our journey has a beginning and will have an end. This we could construe as the boundaries of the construct. "Time 'Was' " could also be construed as the substance and content we have personified within those confines, and finally "now is no more" could be viewed as the dimensionless expanse that extends beyond the confines of the construct. It can only be there that the author can reside.

Wisdom directs us to be in this world but not of it. A more succinct testament to individual authorship, could not be better stated. We indeed must be vigilantly involved in the world around us. It is our garden of experiential, existential and affirming avocation. I think in many, and through many ideologies, the error that caused many to falter, is in the premise that one must be in one or the other. One must deny limit or avoid the substance of one to gain mastery of the other.  wherein the truer approach is that one must be only author of the self and in claiming this gains mastery over both.

When we rightly order our roles as collectively, author, actor and observer, working in a triune  symmetry of fluid transparency, we feel a sense of ownership of our experience and less the perception of being subjugate to the illusion of external influence. And as also mentioned in previous discourse, we indeed do share this reality with many other selves, but when our trajectory is in sync with the harmony of space and time, collisions if any seem to be naturally avoided.